This is one of my favorite quotes that I’ve carried around with me for years. I think back on it often when things are hard or I’m unhappy. We are all each for our own happiness and our own success, no one is responsible to provide that for us. I believe if I am stuck somewhere, it is my responsibility to put on my big girl panties and change my situation. You cannot change your happiness by complaining about it.
I’ve made no secrets that 2014 is going to be a big year for me. When I went to Ironman Arizona to spectate and volunteer, I spent a lot of time in deep conversation with friends and deep in my own head and heart about how I wanted my year to feel and to go. I decided I needed to make some changes because the road I was heading down is not where I wanted to be.
I also realized that the reason I haven’t been vocal for a while is because I’ve been unhappy, and I didn’t realize it until I dug deep down and opened up those doors that I had most likely thought I locked shut. It’s probably the reason I haven’t posted a lot, or been as active as I wanted to be. I didn’t have many exciting things to talk about. I’ve spent the last 6 months fumbling through this year with my head down.
Right now I’m starting to really dig myself out and make changes. I feel like with a few of the things I’ve done I’ve closed a book. I’m no longer writing new chapters to my book of 2013, but I have ended the book. Now, I am about to begin writing a new one for 2014. Realizing that was like getting a big gorilla off of my chest. I didn’t realize how heavy it was until it was gone.
So I’m excited. I have no idea what the next year holds, but I know that I am going keep my mind and my heart open. And I’m going to kick major ass along the way.